Fandom: "Queer As Folk"-US
Rating/Classification: PG-13, ficlet, Justin pov.
Disclaimer: CowLip! Not I.
Summary: A tag to episode 302. Nothing more, nothing less. Nothing big. Just like Brian and Justin's relationship...right?
Your beautiful genius comes home to find you cleaning porn off the hard drive. Eight hundred picture files. Hardcore fucking. Boys bent in fun positions. You recognize some of the file extensions, know you downloaded them yourself, but that only makes up one third of the total number. After a while, you have to scroll, select, and delete them without looking. You see one cock, you've pretty much seen them all.
"Gives your computer and back can't clean it off first, huh?" Ethan is carefully critical, as always...taking up for you even now that you don't need it. "What a prince."
"Mhmmm...you know Brian. All about the big gestures and forgetting the little things," you offer in an equally careful tone, reaching up to kiss him 'hello.'
Yeah. Brian shows up at your high school prom...but never says he cares. He saves you from the bashing...but doesn't show at the hospital. He lets you live with him, but is barely home for all his partying. He pays for your tuition...but won't let you study if he wants to fuck you. He gives you a threesome for your birthday. He never brings you flowers, never makes you breakfast in bed, nevernevernever tells you he loves you.
He lets you have the computer he bought...and the 104 most recent downloaded jpegs are of ethereal blond boys. The first one dated the night of the Rage party at Babylon. The night you left him.
You don't show Ethan, let him stow his violin case and pad into the kitchen to make tea. You don't tell him that the pictures fanned out across the desktop, one over the other, like a mosaic of pale hair and paler stomachs and limber legs.
Brian forgets the little things.
But, apparently, you're not one of them.
March 10, 2003.